Sunday, January 23, 2011

everything i've ever wanted i've found in you ?

I just want to do something hard. What?
I don't know. I don't know what that means.

This is what I know. I am deeply loved by Christ. I have fallen among a really beautiful group of friends. And I keep having these strange urges to not buy any clothes for a year or give away half of everything I own (including my bed to someone who needs it) or to go find hungry kids and feed them, or to move into a neighborhood that is not so nice and clean and is definitely not in the burbs.

But I don't. Or at least, I haven't. I thought I didn't know where to start, but maybe I should start with that paragraph above this one. (I might keep my bed. For now)

This alternatively makes my entire body tight with tension, nervousness, anticipation and softens my abdomen, letting me relax into knowing that life does not get worse if you only have two pairs of boots.

Do you experience this?
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  1. EllenJanuary 24, 2011 at 4:14 AM

    I found this and think it's a good follow up:

    Will the LORD be pleased with thousands of rams, with tens thousands of rivers of oil? Shall I give up m firstborn for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul? He has told you, O man, what is good: and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?

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  2. RachaelJanuary 24, 2011 at 4:31 AM

    Can I just say that I experience the exact same feelings. All the time. And I am right there with you in not knowing where to start. The more I think about these things, the more I feel guilty for having so much "stuff".
    Also, that verse from Micah is one of my favorites. It makes it all sound so simple, right? ...maybe it really is that simple.

    We should skype soon!

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  3. AdamJanuary 24, 2011 at 5:56 AM

    I recommend Matthew 10, the whole chapter. I really like the Message version.

    To date, the hardest thing I have ever done is continue to love someone when they have thoroughly pissed me off and broken all trust. The best lesson I have learned from living in my house is that I'm not very good at loving people, despite what others think of me.

    I think doing something really hard, means doing something really small and being faithful with it.

    See you Wednesday!

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